[ That's a question that's plagued Angel since she first entered the core. It took some grinding down on Jack's part, but for a long time she believed it was what was best for her, that it was deserved. Jack would be quick to bring up the accident at any sign of protest and she'd be hit with a fresh wave of guilt and responsibility each time until she stopped protesting all together.
But then she'd made connections, gotten a taste of something new and exciting and...when he'd stripped even that away from her she was left feeling indignant for the first time in years. When she finally remembered her final months of life, the anger she felt about it all had been scorching, she felt like she could finally see again and all around her was the destruction she'd been forced to do at Jack's bidding.
But even after all that, after all her time here, when that heat cooled she was still left with all the guilt that had stacked up over the years. ]
I don't know anymore. For a long time I thought I did, even at my angriest some of his decisions seemed justified.
[ Her face pinches even further, like she's trying really hard to hold herself together. ]
But then I met Elsa and Riley and you and- you mean so much to me, I didn't want to believe I deserved less than this anymore. Maybe that's selfish of me.
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Date: 2021-11-08 11:25 pm (UTC)But then she'd made connections, gotten a taste of something new and exciting and...when he'd stripped even that away from her she was left feeling indignant for the first time in years. When she finally remembered her final months of life, the anger she felt about it all had been scorching, she felt like she could finally see again and all around her was the destruction she'd been forced to do at Jack's bidding.
But even after all that, after all her time here, when that heat cooled she was still left with all the guilt that had stacked up over the years. ]
I don't know anymore. For a long time I thought I did, even at my angriest some of his decisions seemed justified.
[ Her face pinches even further, like she's trying really hard to hold herself together. ]
But then I met Elsa and Riley and you and- you mean so much to me, I didn't want to believe I deserved less than this anymore. Maybe that's selfish of me.